Today was a mixture of enlightenment and disappointment. I witnessed that Time really does change people. The very person I thought I could never live without, is the very person I cannot even stand living with today. Ironic, yea? Nothing's more heartbreaking than seeing the person you've spent 3 years with, fade from you. The "love" slowly disintegrating every millisecond, just as you're sitting beside them. Every fuckin thought of the past seems to overshadow the present day. You hate em, but you love em. But you love em, so you hate em. Doesn't really make much sense to me neither. Tryna pile up on good thoughts, but with every action that they take, lies a verbal insult somewhere there. Confused as hell tryna organize these feelings & now more than ever do I see these two completely different people. We're two separate minds that'll never share the same thoughts like we did in the past. Our opinions just continue bumping heads. Our hearts are racing, but they're facing opposite directions. Feeling's still colliding, but the chemistry just ain't there anymore. I'm feelin' heavy hearted and angry and sad, all at the same time. It's like a broken light signal. You don't know when to Stop, Slow Down, or Go.
I wanna start fresh, but I just don't.know.how.
