my curiousity empowers me; destorying me, harming me far more than it does benefit me. in a recession, my mind's left with obvious miscalculations too unbearable to withstand. and in the very undertakings of trying to listen to my intuition, i'm left with yet another failed attempt. why must these temptations take control of me? why couldn't i contain myself and just let things be? i'm reading the words right from hand. the answers were GIVEN, but why must i still need to be the witness?! i don't budge, knowing that the physical aspects of our relationship are still bright colored, even if the primer and basic principles of our ideal grade-A relationship has been worn down. these are my self-indulging acts that will in due time tackle me, leaving me with nothing more than self-dishonesty. i'm aware that i'm a rebel within myself. It's time for me to center my ego so i can broaden the chances of turning this abstract visual to a concrete habitual. i've gotta make this perceptible to those around me, and most importantly the soul within me. this is embedded in the rear fronts of my forthoughts and although it's essential to live realistically, it's a mere ground rule to live happily. so in a simple-complex inquiry, what if the very thing that has proven to be unreal, the same thing that enables me to live happily?!
unanswered questions leave me in constant agitation, so irritable that i can hardly concentrate!!!
